Look at her wedgie!

My favorite Bakersfield bar at the time? I would say it would have to be the Mint. After all it is the first time I ever got my ass grabbed by a girl and then made out with her girl friend while the guy I was out with was buying me a drink. That’s just how it was in Bakersfield I was the social butterfly that I was always meant to be.

My appearance changed a little during that time. I started to look like someone out of suicidegirls.com versus a girl from small town Ohio. Bakersfield was just big enough and just small enough that I could fully embrace it. In a short amount of time I knew everyone and everyone knew me. There was never an evening I did not have an invitation and I managed to hold my weight, even lose weight with out trying. Perhaps it was the sex.

Sometimes now I think maybe I gained weight because subconsciously I think I am a whore. If I am fat no body will want me then I can be a good girl again. Well thanks a lot conscience because you where right, I am a good girl for the most part and damn it, I wish I was still a whore. Ok I don’t really think I was a whore. I did not do the whole town. I just wasn’t used to living such a promiscuous life style.

Currently I am at a stage in my life where I think that I am too fat to even attract the Hispanics or black guys. This has got me scared. I haven’t had sex since Saint Patrick’s Day and before that it was sometime in November.

I NEED SEX. I am not the type of person who is going to join one of those swingers clubs that old, fat, ugly people go to, to have sex. I have somewhat of a moral code left, and ewww. I sometimes think that the only reason I want to loose weight is to insure that I will have fantastic sex again. Health reasons come in dead last after wearing cute clothes and being able to comfortably sit in movie theater seats, plane seats, folding chairs with out worrying about breaking them etc. I have broken a countless number of chairs and a few beds. Is there anything more embarrassing than having the chair you are sitting on in public crumble underneath you? Yes having your pants split with no underwear on.

Why doesn’t a fat girl wear underwear you might be wondering? Well there are a couple very good reasons.
1. There are no cute underwear in my size. I am too young to wear grandma panties.
2. Have you seen a girl's butt where the underwear dig in and make it look like she has 4 butt cheeks instead of 2? Enough said.
3. One more thing to struggle to pull up over my fat ass.